Interview
with BKS Iyengar
January,
1998, Pune by Gabriella Giubilaro
Q:
People look
at you and admire you at the age of eighty, still full of health, energy,
vitality and spirit. This is a clear sign of what yoga has done for
you. Could you please tell us something about the difference in your
practice, over the years, in your thirties, forties, fifties, sixties
and seventies?
Guruji:
You know ... evolution in practice goes on as one refines the body inside
as well as the intellect. This intellectual refinement developed tremendous
intuitive understanding to see and practice yoga with a different perspective
altogether. From this stage onwards the inner body and the inner mind
became more attentive, toned and cultured than before.
At
the age of thirty, forty and fifty years of age I was seeking and searching
with my practice and bringing the missing points and missing links for
the cognition of the mind in the ásanas, as well as in the movements
of body and breath. I was studying the missing grips, changing various
grips, at different times measuring the wrong tensions and with right
tensions and vice versa, in the body. It was like a fluctuating body
in a fluctuating mind. For years all this was there. Sometimes, I began
to touch right to zero tension. This I developed so that it remains
as permanent imprints in my intelligence.
The
matter of studying the ásanas and pránáyáma,
to become a perfect sádhaka was not explained or taught by anybody.
I had to study the definition of ásana with the available explanations,
the movement of the in-breath and the out-breath as well as the fluctuations
and oscillations. The body has its own mechanisms as the mind has it's
own. The body has its own intelligence. I had to bring out this hidden
intelligence for the mind to focus on.
This
is called the body-mind language, but I do not think it is the right
terminology to use for the intelligence of the body. The body language
is an outer expression and the language of the mind is an inner expression.
Intelligence of the body rubs with the intelligence of the mind and
the intellect. This is an unknown phenomenon. Only yoga practitioners
will understand it. Hence, there is a vast difference between body language
and body intelligence.
The
body language is an expression of a failure or a success; this was there
in my earlier presentation. Body language is a kind of exhibitionism
or showmanship. While giving public performances, I used this to make
each part of the body express itself as an individual entity. This is
known as body language. You may call it the egoism of the body. After
expressing the ego of the body I used to feel that there was something
more than body cult or language that is the mental quality of the body.
I call it a psychological expression. I do not know if there is any
terminology for that, it is a difficult point to explain for me.
The
content - mind, ego, intelligence and self - as well as the container
- the body, has to work in unison so that both the content as well as
the container express together. Everybody knows that the body is matter.
Our ancient science declares that mind is also matter. If the body is
gross matter, the mind is subtle matter or one can call the mind as
fine matter. These differences in matter took me a very long time to
realize in a practical way. It is very easy to talk about such things
but to experience it moment to moment in sádhaná is very
difficult. These differences come to the surface after reached the zero
state of tension in ásanas. Now I say that my physical, mental
and intellectual maturity is on an equal level while doing ásana,
prànáyáma and dhyána.
In
the case where one may be intellectually mature but the body does not
respond and send messages; of where one is good or bad, and right or
wrong, when it comes from the intelligence of the body, and the intelligence
of the intellect; then I say that harmony in doing and feeling has come,
or set, in that person. If the manual pressures, which are considered
purely physical, are uneven, the internal balance of the mind do goes
uneven. I could not express these sensations of uneven pressures between
the body and the mind in my earlier practices. The two scooter accidents
I had in 1979 limited my movements a great deal. Probably if I had not
met with these accidents I would have penetrated the inner body - I
use the word the inner body - far deeper, with ease and comfort.
For
me, the inner body is where the physio-psychological body ends and the
mental body begins. This is my inner body and the inner mind. I can
feel the organic body with ease, but beyond the organic body is an empty
space inside the body, and to penetrate that empty space requires really
a great amount of discipline, not only that but a great amount of attention
and observation. While observing one has to attentively reflect again
and again on re-adjustments so that in the re-adjustments one does not
disturb the other parts which are already in an attentive "zero"
state of action.
Probably
I could have jumped miles ahead if the accidents had not occurred. Sometimes
destiny plays and disturbs one's determined goal and practice, tempting
one to give up making further efforts.
Destiny almost made me give up the practice, as the movements were very
painful. Because of my strong will power I have not given it up. I had
to begin again as a raw beginner after the accidents and pursue yoga
persistently. I re-tooled and re-tyred myself. My inner body was still
aching but the will ignited me to work to come out from the weakness
in the parts of the body that were injured.
Even
at eighty-one, I can say with confidence that I am bringing out the
best. Just now, you said that I am keeping very well. The quality of
keeping up the well being of my earlier days was definitely on the physical
plane, which I was using with great intensity. Today my well-being is
not from the physical level but from the mental and intellectual level.
Naturally, first the body decays, matter decays and the gross body decays
before the finer body decays. When the gross body goes on decaying,
the mind gives way.
In
order to keep the mind in fine tune, I have to tone and keep the gross
physical body expressing the dynamic vibrancy latent in the cells by
attending to each and every fiber of my body. It is a sense of well-being
in the very life force of man. Glamour is purely the external expression
of the body. My practice of yoga has brought glamour to my inner body,
to my cells, fibers, tendons, muscles and organs. This glamour is nothing
else but refinement in practice and experience.
Refinement of Soul comes with intense work with the internal body and
mind. I continue to maintain the inner glamour without allowing the
deterioration that comes with age. With internal practice the natural
process of deterioration is slowed down and arrested.
My yoga practice is now aimed at transforming the glamour into glory.
I did not pay attention to external beauty as I was sick and looked
ugly due to ill health. I paid much more attention to inner life and
inner lively sensation, which according to me is inner beauty. Today,
I say at the age of eighty-one, I do not think of my age when I practice.
The very thought of age can become your enemy in your practice. People
remind me of my age, but while practicing yoga I am beyond my body and
its age. The moment one thinks of old age the mind takes shelter for
escape and the body fails.
Whenever the body starts failing I start to enthuse it for work by rejuvenating
and recouping the part of the body that remains dull. The moment my
mind says I am eighty-one, the mind naturally wants to give way. Then
I am lost for yoga. Hence, I work and struggle to find out where the
blocks are and each day I work to remove these blocks and go ahead without
thinking of my age while practicing. I keep in my heart the will to
work, to maintain this extreme refinement in my body and sharpness in
my intelligence. If in my practice, my body skin contracts, I feel my
mind is contracting. If part of my body is dull, I know my mind is dull
in that area. At this age these are the things which appear, but very
few pay attention to these.
I am grateful to God for giving me the wonderful gift of sensitivity
of mind, intellect and body (note 1). I am working hard even now to
maintain that quality, because nature is to shrink as one ages, but
I am not allowing it to shrink so that my mind may not become small
or petty. If the mind shrinks, the courage also shrinks and ageing begins.
I do not call it struggle, because I love to practice yoga, I am comparing
the duality that arrives at this age. Where the body says I cannot reach,
yoga practice helps me to reach there. Having seen ageing people the
mind entices with the thought, "Why do you want to strain yourself
so much? Enjoy life, you have worked with discipline, enjoy life, forget
everything." I say, "No." In order to be honest to my
conscience I am practicing.
Even to date my goal is to trace the ethereal body, beyond the organic
body. Now, I am not struggling but educating the channeled mind to move
consciously everywhere in it's frontier the body. I am educating myself
when I stretch my physical body. I create an internal stretch, which
the spectators cannot see. I am bringing my Self, the very Soul and
the inner being, close to its envelope the skin. This way I keep in
contact with the inner body, so that the body does not feel the age
and is one with the Soul.
Though ageing and death is certain to the body, for me practicing yoga
keeps me away from the idea of age and death. Practice brings the diminishing
body in contact with the Eternal Soul. The eternity of the Soul does
not remain mere ideology any more as you experience it practically.
This union is a very complicated thing. Many people may not understand
easily. Know that I do not stretch the body today, which I used to do
in my thirties and fifties. Now I stretch the intelligence in my body
to expand so that the intelligence stretches my body.
Today I make the intelligence trace the body everywhere. That is why
I say I was a seeker in the beginning. Now, being no more a seeker,
I stretch my intelligence and make the body to stretch on its own. If
I stretch my body I may feel the signs of fatigue, because the body
feels the strain, the mind feels the exhaustion. Now I work with the
intelligence so that I support the mind in the body. Previously, I was
making my body and my mind the major important means in order to master
yoga. Now I make them secondary and I move my intelligence firmly with
the Self. The Self as content expands in my body and the fluidity of
my inner body expands the solid body.
In the early days I was using the solid body to make it fluid. Today
it is not so, it is the fluid I make to come in contact with the solid
body. It is a very subtle and sublime practice, which non-practitioners
perhaps, may not understand.
Q:
Once, I heard you say that you now understand what happens to the body
when it becomes old, could you explain what happens?
Guruji:
This is also a new thing. If you see a youngster's body and if you see
an aged person's body, the top ribs shrink in an ageing person to a
greater extent. Why? Only when we are full of life, the top chest is
broader than the middle chest or the bottom chest. Look at a skeleton.
There you see the contraction is on the top.
This
fact was guiding me, how the energy of life shrinks from the extremity,
that it gradually moves towards the inner body and shrinks from the
external to the internal and from the internal to the inner most, which
the ordinary mind cannot grasp. When shrinking goes on, naturally the
life force does not reach there and so the life energy starts getting
contracted. When the life energy starts contracting, the top ribs get
smaller and smaller. There is no room or space for the energy to occupy.
They get dried out, and the energy does not flow to the extremities.
The lifeline becomes short and evaporates at the last moment.
That
is why I am practicing to see that the life energy does not shrink from
the body. This I learned very recently. You have seen me today doing
a lot of backbends. When you do backbends you complain of backache and
pain, you will be surprised to know that at this age backbends bring
pain and dryness in the sternum. I do not get pains or aches like you,
but I get pain in the sternum. This is how I have learned how old age
sets in. The sternum is known as a dry area, where energy recedes. Even
a medical person will tell you that this area is full with a bony structure
and movement is very little.
That
is why, when I explain the breathing techniques, one third of the chest
is full of bones. You do not fee the dryness in the sternum at your
age. When I am in touch with yoga for years, why do I feel this dryness
and shrinking? This is how I know that the old age develops by this
shrinking quality. You know that sometimes, strong athletes die earlier
than the common man does. They overwork and dry out. They do not know
how to recuperate and do not know how to keep the dry areas wet.
Even
today when you see my backbends, I do them more in the area of cervical
spine than the lumbar or the thoracic dorsal spine, because the dryness
is only here. When I do backbends I feel completely dry and at that
time I rub my hands. This is what this age is teaching me, that life
is shrinking and warns me to be careful. Do not allow the part to become
dryer than what it is now, make it wet - that is, re-energize it and
do not allow the area to shrink further. This is what I am learning
even at this age.
I
did ask my pupils who are doctors to give the clues of old age other
than muscles contracting. Not one has the clue. They talk about shrinking
of muscles tightening of joints and stiffness. No doctor said anything
about the dryness in the sternum. As I told you before, the refinement
in the intelligence is so little that they cannot reach the solid area.
Because of having trained my body for sixty years, it has developed
its own sensitivity, its own intelligence. Now at this age it tells
me that even the hardest part, the life in the sternum, is slowing down
and drying out. It cautions to be careful. So I have to attend more
in order to keep my sternum wet. Who will understand this? Tell me.
I make the Self expand itself to the sternum so that shrinking is stopped.
Know that this happens only in backbends and not in any other ásanas.
It has remained to me an enigma, a mystery. In old life, though the
life goes on, it becomes shorter and shorter. The area near the sternum
shrinks and this is the indication that the elderly have to face and
work out so that the fear may not set in. The fear is bound to be set
in, that is why old people do like that, which you have seen (note 2).
You see anybody then you will know.
If people look at me as a gymnast, it is their fault. It is also wrong
to say that I am able to do ásanas because I started my practice
early in life. At this stage, at a different age the new understanding,
new penetration, the fresh courage is required. People should see the
honesty, the integrity and the dedication in practice. They should see
my love for the subject and the way I live in the subject.
Q:
Once I heard you saying that once you used to practice for teaching
and now you practice for yourself.
Guruji:
lf I have to teach I have to be to a great deal an extrovert. If I am
an introvert, I cannot teach. My practice time then is meant to follow
the art of teaching to a great extent. As you know from the story of
my early days, the art was not popular I had to practice more in order
to present this art in public. One has to respect the public and then
show them what they do not know. Naturally, I had to be an extrovert.
I was appearing in public as well as teaching.
So, in order to be an extrovert, one has to create glamour in the inner
body. My presentation was more attractive for the people, as I was presenting
not only physically but also intellectually and emotionally. Each fiber,
each tendon, each cell expressed the ásana. Many of you cannot
present the ásanas in that manner. I used to trace the portrait
of each ásana and made that area expressive. This way I used
my attention to make this dry subject very attractive and tasty. This
public presentation attracted millions of people who are practicing,
for which I am grateful to all of them. From my efforts of seventy years
what I got is unimportant, but what yoga gave to the mass was something,
which I say is a great success in my life.
Yoga was not given by me, but through me. Now see how far it has spread!
For example, in 1989, I was invited by the Ministry of Health to visit
Russia to introduce an unknown subject. Now there are twenty-two centers
in Russia. See how much the yoga has spread! I think my practice has
opened the eyes of the masses. I am sure that if I have not benefited,
the grace of God is on my students who have benefited and are benefiting.
I had to struggle in yoga from A to Z, but my students need not struggle
from A to Z. All my students should remember this. Naturally, the effect
and benefit of yoga will be there even if a small percentage of my way
of practice is taught. I teach less these days because I want my pupils
to come up. I do not want the yoga that I practiced and am practicing
to die after me. This is what happens to a lot of great people who do
not allow their ardent students to grow under them. If I am the trunk,
branches are my pupils. They have to be kept in an even, fresh and trim
condition. That is why I give chances to all the youngsters all over
the world to progress in yoga.
This is the stage in which by closing the windows of knowledge from
the senses of perception, which were going outside for the art of teaching
all these years, I reverse them to see what is inside and make it more
glamorous. I am using the word 'glamorous' because the Western world
is very much attracted to this word. That is why I want to show that,
that glamour should shine from within in such a way that the others
can see and feel that person is totally within and without. This is
what yoga teaches the student. With this in mind I am doing more and
more to find out whether further refinement can be made to become supremely
sensitive.
I do not want to die as a non-practitioner, as many yogis have done.
Probably, they could not face the difficulties coming in the practice
due to old age and had no courage to accept the truth. They said that
they have reached a certain spiritual level just to cover up their weaknesses.
They said so to save their honor. I want to be true to my sádhaná
and my conscience and hence, I continue with my sádhaná.
I am not a liberated Soul; I have experienced what is freedom. I have
experienced the quality of what freedom is. I do not think of liberation
while I am practicing. My mind probes on what more yoga can reveal from
practice. My mind is still open. As it is open, I am seeing the ásanas
now as a seer. I am not searching. As a seer I am seeing, and seeing
as a seer. Who knows if God gives me a next life, if people like you
are made to do yoga again you may be searching for a good practitioner?
You may find me again to learn yoga!
Therefore, I am practicing yoga for that knowledge, which has not struck
me now, but may strike in the next life. So, I do not stop my practice.
Let that light, which may not be coming now, come at the last moment.
Illumination can take place further in my practice. That illumination,
you may call it selfish, but I do not say it is selfish. On the contrary,
I say that if I get illumination, in my next life I may start from where
I ended just now. If there is a break I cannot say that I stopped here.
If there is a gap of ten years I may not start in the next life, at
that time, because my consciousness has covered a lot of other things,
but if I am practicing, my consciousness will be in that same point,
yoga.
My consciousness is closer to yoga even in my next life, but if there
is a gap of ten years, fifteen years or so, my consciousness will not
be in contact with yoga. I may say I have done sixty-five years, so
how can I forget? Why is it said that every one should have hobbies?
For me, my hobby is yoga, my profession is yoga. A hobby means to be
free from profession and to keep engaged in other activities, to avoid
monotony. So, I converted my professional yoga into a hobby to find
out how much more it can exhilarate my heart. For me, yoga is not a
monotonous practice. I find all in yoga and that is why I am continuing
my practice with love.
Note 1: Then gerontologists may say that one should not think that one
is old. Old people are also advised to keep their mind occupied in some
leisurely activities. At the age of eighty-one to make the body bend
in advance ásanas like Sirsásana, Kapotásana and
Vráchikásana and to stay longer in the ásana is
extremely difficult and challenging. This requires tremendous flexible,
stability, compactness and balance. Gurují talks about the courage
of the mind, but for other old people courage at the body level is also
difficult to maintain.
Note 2: Gurují was rubbing his hand on his sternum.
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